I want to live with my whole heart…to give it without fear, without judgement, without reservation. The trouble is…this heart knows what it is to fear, to judge, to be reserved. These days it seems holding back is what it’s really good at, for like most, I find it hard to love like I’ve never been hurt. I try to offer it still, but offer in part. I can’t really blame other or this great gift of Life as much as my own shame, & the brokenness that surrounds any experience in this world. God wouldn’t want me to hold my heart back, His heart back, I know. It’s just seems so much safer. Over & over again I read what Ray Lessin wrote: “God didn’t come to make you half; He came to make you whole.” Please God, make me whole. Please God, keep making me whole. Please God, help me to love others as if I am whole.
What does it really look like to live wholeheartedly? In her excellent book entitled The Gifts of Imperfection, Brené Brown offers a definition for wholehearted living that has transformed my understanding of it:
“Wholehearted living is about engaging with our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion and connection to wake up in the morning and think, ‘No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough.’ It’s going to bed at night thinking, ‘Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn’t change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging.”
In Christ, I am indeed enough. What I could never merit on my own, I am freely given. As I accept His gift of being completely right with Him, I am free to live with generosity of spirit toward others. Living wholeheartedly means I choose to accept & assume the best in others. God takes all of my need, & offers me all His wholeness. How can I, in turn, attempt to offer any less to a world He loves with all His heart?